On July 14, 2011 the oncologist and the team spoke with us to introduce the concept of palliation. It was a hard and difficult conversation to hear and with 20/20 hindsight it was the moment that Donna began to give up.
They recommended home hospice. So that weekend I pulled it together and ordered the bed, etc. I guess after the weekend and taking one look at how emotionally fucked I was they recommended Donna be moved to Karpus 4 the in unit hospice. For the next month the bed remained in the apartment reminding me of what was not happening. What was lost. What will be forever. She will not be back. Of course I can always go to her.